It took me several years to consider having another baby and then even after I thought ok, maybe we can have another child, it took a while for me to really decide I was ready.
After losing Kate my grieving period lasted a really long time. I learned just because you go through one stage of grief does not mean that you can not go backwards and go back to that stage again. Getting to the acceptance stage took quite a while for me. I actually wrote about Acceptance on the Early Angels Blog. I just went back and looked at the date that was posted and it was July 3, 2008! Wow, I can't wait to see what July 3, 2009 holds for us.
I think I had really grieved our loss of Kate and because I had learned a lot about grieving I believe that really helped me after our miscarriage and grieving that baby girl as well.
I remember at Kate's funeral our pastor saying that "God through time heals"...and I believe that God knows how fast or slow you should go through your grieving period. There are certain days, holidays, or something will happen that will make you wish you knew what might have been.....I think about them everyday....because if everything had worked out to "our" plan then we would have 2 little girls in our house right now. But one thing I do know is that it we are not in control and God has a plan for us.
I am sure this is a topic I will talk about again but thought I would talk about it today to.
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